The MAN in the MOON

to the man i search for in the skies every night, among the stars in my galaxy, the one i always write about in silhouette...the man in the moon, how much longer shall i long for you before i can have you? you are my life's greatest miracle and frustration, my most favorite mistake. a re-run i never seem to tire rewinding. you are the only man i can love over and over again. the one i want to be with until my dying day.

and i quote: "THE BEST PART OF LOVE IS LOSING ALL SENSE OF REALITY..."

since loving you, this line has become a favorite because it sums up everything that i feel for you. ever since i loved you, my life was never the same again. i will not be complete until i am finally with you, so the cliché goes. loving you constitutes a lot of obstacles and impossibilities. it weakens my very soul and prompts my vulnerabilities. i only know i want to be with you. i need to be with you, but it is far too painful and difficult, like i want heaven and earth to merge. however, Elizabeth Barrett Browning once said: "WHO SO LOVES BELIEVES THE IMPOSSIBLE..."

so i hold on to what i feel for you. i will love you until i can no longer love you...which is IMPOSSIBLE!

loving you is utter melancholic and beautiful...
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!

loving you is my beginning and ending...
I WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL THE END!

loving you is both nothing and everything...
YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING!

one day it will all make sense.

one day i will understand, come whatever may.

one day i will be better than today.

but, for now, this is all i want to know. this is all i want to feel. i am going around in circles. i am all over the place. when all i really want to say is...I LOVE YOU...

© Theren Alexander 2012